| "How can you have a beautiful ending without making beautiful mistakes?"
So, this is it. I think that the moment I moved to Saratoga, I couldn't wait to get out of here. And my chance has finally come. Moving day is July 2nd or 3rd (we STILL haven't decided...typical) and I will finally be heading down to the city of angels, the land of sunshine, the place where my lifetime BFF eagerly awaits. But, as always, you never know what you have until you're losing it.
I've always believed that I have no regrets, but when I look back on high school, there are a lot of things I would have done differently. I should have taken more chances. I shouldn't have spent so long being so miserable, whatever the circumstances. Because life really is what you make it. I shouldn't have wasted my time trying to impress the wrong people. Only near the end do we realize who matter to us the most.
"Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours." Life is SHORT. So why do we waste our time with people who don't truly care about us, who make us feel smaller, not bigger, who are fickle and have no loyalty, who drop good relationships or friendships for people who are more popular or desireable? We shouldn't, and I learned that the hard way. Sometimes it takes years to really know someone, and by that time, their deceitful tricks have won us over and it's far too late. Just remember that when someone really cares about you, they show it with their actions, not their words (there's truth in cliches), and you should take it for what it's worth.
I should have kept in touch more with my Lynbrook friends. At Saratoga, I never had that connection with my friends that spanned back to elementary or middle school-the carefree days before that whole high school mess happened (JK). I guess I realized that the only way to move on was to let go of some things, but I now wish I hadn't as much. During these four years, I thought to myself countless times, if I went to Lynbrook, would things be different? And the answer is yes, things would definitely be different. I probably would have been happier during Freshman and Sophomore year. I might have not wasted so much time. But I definitely wouldn't have learned as much. I don't regret that I went to Saratoga-I only regret some things that I did- because I'm happy with who I am right now, and every path I have taken has led me here.
So to the Saratoga High Class of '06, I think I will ACTUALLY miss you!
NO really, I will. And to my best friends, thanks for all the beautiful memories...
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